Ed's Blog: "Madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little push."

Another time, another blog. Not really in the greatest of moods so I will give this warning: this blog will be, not may be, it will be depressing.

Little explanation for the quote. It's a quote from the Joker in the great film, The Dark Knight. Basically I think that this quote is so truthful. And I can relate it to myself which gives it a deeper meaning for me. It's quite self-explanatory. I feel that what the quote is trying to say is that, really, anyone can suffer from insanity and all it takes to set off this insanity is "a little push". In my case, there have been numerous times where I have slipped away from sanity. Although I wouldn't class depression as being a mental illness like schizophrenia, dementia, etc. I would still class it as a mental illness and it's alarming and worrying to think that a large proportion of the population suffer from it. Relating this back to the quote, it would appear that all it takes for depression to take over is a little push. And as I said earlier, I've had these little pushes numerous times throughout my life. Events such as bullying, my parent's divorce, numerous relationship breakups and just general shit that has happened and has shaped me into the depressed, fucked up individual that I am. And the shit thing is, now, anything can push me back into depression. It doesn't have to be big. It doesn't even have to last long. It just happens. And after ages of me trying to gain back some normality in my life. Something will pop up and fuck it all up. And I'll be back at square one. Depressed. Alone. And hating myself. And that is currently where I am at the moment. Back at square one. So, even though he is a fictional character and even though he is only in a film, the Joker was right. Madness is like gravity. All it takes is a little fucking push.

At this point I would ask "How's my week been?". But as you can tell from my rant above, it hasn't been the best of weeks for me. I mean it started off well. Monday was band practice which was great. Tuesday was a lazy day which again was great. Then roll in Wednesday, when I got some news that destroyed all this. I'm not going to say what it was, it just shook me up a bit. Thankfully though I have a very good friend who is like a sister to me, she knows who she is, who was there to help me. I just wanna say thank you to you bud. Really means a lot to me. Thursday was a nice day. A good friend came round. We watched couple of DVDs and had a good time. Helped take my mind off things. Also treat myself to a takeaway pizza, mainly because I actually couldn't be arsed to cook myself any food. It was a very nice pizza. Friday was a good day. Went to a party got shit faced. Met some great new people. And I had a fucking awesome time.

Now to my recommendations of the week. This week I'm not going to recommend a film because I couldn't think of anything that I want to recommend. But there are three songs that I want to recommend to you. They are: El Scorcho and Undone - The Sweater Song by Weezer and Pretty Handsome Awkward by The Used.

I wanna recommend these two songs because they epitomize what this band are to me. Great. First heard them about 10 years ago and they've been with me ever since. Wanted to recommend these two songs because I thought I'd leave this blog on a higher note (considering the rest has been depressing). The first song El Scorcho is such an under-appreciated Weezer song. It truly is great. And the second song Undone - The Sweater Song is just brilliant. Can't really tell you the meanings behind the songs as I myself don't actually know. All I will say is give them a listen because they are great songs from a great band. The third song I want to recommend is Pretty Handsome Awkward by The Used. Recommended a song by The Used in my first blog I think. Well this song is another example of why I have to grown to love this band. This song is just brilliant. Again I don't really know the meaning behind it. I just love it because it is a great song so check it out.

Well that's the blog for this week. I'll leave you with the videos for El Scorcho and Undone - The Sweater Song by Weezer and Pretty Handsome Awkward by The Used. Enjoy.

El Scorcho: